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Bloody Monday

It’s a new year with new, but still very uncommitted and undefined, hopes and expectations. A new year with new wonderful fandoms waiting around the corner, new books to read, new games to play, new music to discover… Likewise, there’s that warm and fuzzy feeling in the belly regarding reacquainting oneself with the old (favourite shows airing a new season, past fandoms making a comeback, reading old books, rediscovering ones favourite music, and possibly maybe logging in to one’s old accounts in one’s old favourite games and say hello to one’s old characters). One of the beauties with being a geek is how one can very easily get equally enthused by both the past and the future, because there is Just So Much Goodness.

But I digress. This was supposed to be some sort of recap. Have i actually done ANYTHING yet, in 2013? Doesne’t feel like it. Here goes!



Post-Christmas WTF:

  • It seems that we still have Christmas in our house, because ALL THE DECORATIONS ARE STILL UP. Because I am inherently lazy. And I am also very good at just… stop noticing stuff. The only thing I did to de-christmasify in our home was to take the red table cloth off the dining table. Jed suggested we’d just through a blanket over the Christmas tree and leave it there for next year. I feel inclined to agree.
  • Besides the decorations, there are still a plethora of other post-Christmas stuff lying around; boxes, ribbons, gifts, Christmas cards and crafting stuff. Maybe I should just give up and celebrate a 2nd Christmas.
  • One really fun post-Christmas WTF is that we got a sausage-maker-extension for my Electrolux kitchen assistant, and that we successfully have made our first batch of our own sausages (English-type bangers). They turned out GREAT. And we know exactly what is in them, which feels epic.


  • You know what? I haven’t picked up and started to read a book yet, this year. And January is almost over. Shame. Shame! I have been listening to podcasts and reading blogs like crazy, but not picked out the first book to read this year. But that will soon be mended, because I got two GREAT books to read from my friend Micu for Christmas, so I am not in a panic. Think I will try to make an effort and register more books on this year. My friend Hanna is very good at this and it’s fun to follow! I like it.


  • I finally got to see The Hobbit! About a month or more after the rest of nerdverse, but still! Yes, I went to see it in 3D and with the higher frame rate, I did, and I only did because I am a sucker that can’t NOT do that when I have the option. And I sort of regret it and wish I’d just gone and seen the normal version. I love the story, of course, and some bits of the movie was truly amazing, but watching it I couldn’t help but feel sometimes that I had been thrown into a camp of larpers. I loved the movie – awesome actors, beautifully made, funny in many place – but I wasn’t as blown away as when I saw Lord of the Rings. But I will see it again. Many, many times.


I have been on a YouTube bender lately. There’s just so much fun happening right now, people producing their own stuff and making their own channels, with no networks involved. Exciting times!

  • I am of course completely hooked on The Lizzie Bennet Diaries, an adaptation of Jane Austen’s Pride & Prejudice (which, naturally, is on my all-time-high-must-read book list). This show was created by another YouTube favourite of mine, Hank Green, from the Vlog Brothers. Also, so much fun that one of the characters is just allowed to break free and pursue her own story line, showing us stuff that the original book never portraits. Love it! If I would call this The Most Epic FanFic Ever, would somebody hit me in the head?
  • Another great YouTube series is Squaresville, which will soon be back with more eps. Woo!
  • My drunk kitchen. It’s not only that watching someone cook and and get drunk at the same time just clicks with me like a warm carrot-onsie hug, but also, Hanna Hart is adorable and seems so genuinely charming.


My most recent loves include:

  • Girl on Guy with Aisha Tyler. So many awesome interviews with interesting people, ranting about video games, action movies, comic books, fast machines, sex, small batch spirits, bar fights, and blowing sh*t up
  • Risk with Kevin Allison. True stories, boldly told. It is a live show and podcast where poeple tell true stories they thought they would never share in public. Some are funny, some sad, some horrifying, but all in all:  Good stories!


  • Shamefully low amount of gaming during the last month. As a gamer I always expect to have oodles of time to vegetate in front of my PC or Xbox during the holidays, and just have days and days where gaming is always more prioritized than, say, showering. This wasn’t the case this Christmas, so now I feel like I have to sort of schedule my gaming in Google calendar or something.
  • I did however get to have a whole day of pew pew with some work mates, game of choice that day was Blops II. It really was a lot of fun, much thanks to actually playing with your peeps in the same room, nobody taking it too seriously or anything like that.
  • Of course I am stuck in the android-app-game-hell where I am playing some game or another that needs upkeep and activity every day if you don’t feel like spending any actual money on it (that would be the day that hell froze over). There’s been a variety of parks full of dragons or monsters or balloon animals or whatevs, and at some point you just cannot build anything new or fun and all you do is collect gold or sparkles or candy canes or the like. That’s when I uninstall it. Then on to the next one. It’s a vicious, time-stealing circle of non-life. Sometimes I remind myself that this sort of everyday grinding was the exact reason I stopped playing SimCity and the Sims and WoW and a whole bunch of other games. And then I uninstall some more apps.
  • I might or might not have tried to patch the latest updates in EQ2… It took ages and I fell asleep on the couch and didn’t get a chance to log in. Which is probably just as well. I miss that game every day, but I know what happens if I start playing it. I will start to manage my characters as if it was a career. I have so much invested in my two accounts, I cannot leave any character behind and just play and go on adventures with one of them. And I cannot get used to the free-to-play version, I am so sorry. It’d have to be the full monty (e.g. two full subscriptions) or nothing. I think if I would invest more time in an excisting MMO right now it would be in a game where I only have one toon, still. Like Rift or Secret World…
  • But there is always the lofty promise of EQ Next in 2013…
  • I should stop rambling now.



That’s it, peeps! Have some coffee. Eat some chocolate. Have a good day!



omg I did something grown-up

This is a public announcement:

I did something grown-up this morning. I looked at thermometer and noticed that the temperature had dropped from -3 C to -11 C. And then I dressed in very warm clothes before heading out. And it worked. I did not wear my flimsy shoes. I did not freeze to death. I even brought a travel mug with hot tea.

Freaking awesome, you guys.

I am now officially middle-age.

But it was a very pretty morning, for sure!

The Obligatory New Year’s Woot

This is the obligatory New Year Woot Woot blog post! Happy new year! A bit late, maybe, but never the less.

I should have taken down our Christmas tree the other day, but instead I ate some chocolate. Chocolate is said to: decrease the risk of a stroke, reduce the likelihood of a heart attack, control coughs, and help you with your mental math. Since I’ve been pretty stressed out the last year, and got a cold worthy of Golgomath that has left me coughing for over a month, I felt that my choice was a valid priority. Also, I am trying to be frugal and budgety this year, so I’m sure that mental math thing will help too. In fact, I might need to buy new chocolate.

Christmas was thoroughly enjoyable and full of good stuff, such as family time, sweet gifts and homemade food. It was celebrated at our house this year, and because of this the cat had a very busy time with his  strict kitty controls (everything new we bring into our apartment must be sat upon, slept upon, scratched or chewed little bit, and then loudly and promptly meowed at. If whatever item it is can take that, it’s approved. And possibly elected to be his new favourite sleeping spot).

I have not made any official “new year’s resolutions”, but I inevitably have a long, mental list of things I would like to achieve and hopes about what this year will bring. Some of them I have written down in my notebook, some of them I have shared with those close to me, but I will not announce it here in any sort of fancy fashion. There are some things I have DECIDED to do this year, as a challenge for myself, and I have noticed that Big Announcements kills the whole thing for me. And I don’t want to squash the spark.

I have however used an app on my phone to always display a short bullet point list of things I want to remember to do more often. Because I’ve realized I’m too easily distracted to actually remember those things I wish I did more often. I look at this list as a friendly reminder to myself. So far it seems to work pretty well.

We have already had a heck of a lot of snow in Stockholm this winter. A few weeks before Christmas the skies just opened up and the snow would just not stop falling. We had a proper white Christmas, yay! Then it melted and became icy (with complimentary icy rain that blows right up in your face) and then it snowed some more. It’s a whole snowy/icy/slippery/slushy mess. And winter ain’t even over. Usually February is the most winteriest of months, and then it’s a guessing game whether spring will come early (will there be bare ground in March?) or late (will we have frekking snow still falling in May?).

What I yearn for is a bit of daylight. Some sun. All we have right now are heavy clouds. But it will surely clear up in a few weeks. Days will start to become a little bit longer. In a month or two there might even be the slightest bit of light on the horizon when I go to work in the mornings. Then the snow will melt and the streets will be swept of all the gravel, and then we can wear comfy sneakers again, and wear scarfs because it’s cute, rather than because we need to dress ourselves in a cocoon to protect ourselves from the cold. We’ll be able to have a cup of coffee outside in the fresh air. Feel some sun on our cheeks. And it shall be glorious.


Snow day - But I never get to stay home

34 Things Since My Last Birthday – Because I Love Lists

Oh my goodness! The end of November 2012, already? I have my birthday in November, so now I have turned 34. Since I am very fond of lists and retrospective round-ups, I’m posting a random list of 34 random things I have done since my last birthday (here I would like to add, in a fit of completely unnecessary honesty, that I typed 24 instead of 34. Three times in a row… Meh).

Since my last birthday I have:

  1. had a goal to do something creative every day for 365 days
  2. not done something creative every day for 365 days, but a lot of them none the less, and have had the most creative year in a long, long time
  3. handmade a lot of gifts for friends and family
  4. shipped some of my handmade items from my Etsy store all over the world
  5. attended a gorgeous, fairytale wedding in England whilst suffering from double-sided pneumonia
  6. visited London Zoo with my darling Jed
  7. climbed the Giotto bell tower in Florence for the second time in my life
  8. ended up in the yearly Chianti festival in Greve, by luck and happenstance
  9. went on a romantic weekend to Copenhagen with my boo
  10. found a wonderful pen friend, Micu
  11. gotten many lovely letters in my mailbox
  12. met my penfriend Micu in real life!
  13. started making mail art more regularly
  14. started the project Mail a Smile with my friend Micu! (We still need help! Check out the blog!)
  15. gotten an Espresso story published over here
  16. taken some portraits of my friend Cecilia (you can see some of them here)
  17. participated with 3 photos in Photo Sunday(click here to see)
  18. participated in the worldwide event with these here photos
  19. took photos at the 1 year anniversary of my friend Vanja’s awesome SwapShop (have a look in their FB album)
  20. started a small photo blog, but haven’t found a good theme for it yet
  21. , like the crazy cat lady I am, celebrated my cats 7th birthday
  22. reread “The hobbit”
  23. read The Little Prince
  24. filled two notebooks with miscellaneous ramblings, lists, doodles, plans and projects
  25. learned how to make crumpets
  26. played The Secret World
  27. played Rift
  28. played Halo 4
  29. had several crafting crops in my home
  30. documented a lot of good memories
  31. made several scrapbook layouts, some of my favourites: this, thisand this
  32. drunk oodles and oodles of tea and wah-hay too much coffee
  33. found new friendships
  34. had a lovely, lovely year with Jed

Now, I would like to extend the list to things that happened just around/after my birthday, many awesome things, but that would be cheating, so I’ll save that for another post.

Happy Birthday, Little Guy

This is how my little Sixxten looked seven years ago:

I can’t believe he’s seven years old now! It doesn’t seem like that long ago when he climbed up in my lap, the heaviest little lump of the litter.Since then he has been a constant funny, entertaining, comforting, annoying, talkative, playful, cheeky, fluffy, hairy bundle of joy. It would be very empty without him.

Of course we had to make him a little tuna mousse cake:

Happy birthday, little buddy. Thank you for always sleeping on my belly when my tummy is aching, and waking me up in time for work on weekdays.

Drabblecast and Podcast Junkie

Podcasts has become one of my staples in life. Who’d have thunk? I’ve gone from having a constant stream of music in my ears to a half-time podcast junkie. There are so many great ones out there, well produced, good sound quality (which is a must, or I can’t concentrate), and one for every possible topic one could be interested in. I just love the fact that so many people out there have so much motivation and enthusiasm, and spend time and effort on producing great content about things they love, and that they share it.

One favourite podcast of late, thanks to my friend Oakfairy, is Drabblecast. This podcast is completely addictive to me, and I am working my way through the archives in a fast pace, like the story glutton that I am.

Drabblecast has strange stories for strange listeners, it’s a free, weekly, audio fiction podcast featuring short stories at the far side of weird. So, in other words, loads of the stories that fascinates me the most, like post-apocalyptic stories, or stories inspired by H.P. Lovecraft.

These are some of my favourite episodes of late (but as I am going through the archive I am very sure I will find many more):

As I said, the content of this wonderful podcast is free and non-profit. However, if you appreciate the show, you can always donate, and all donations goes towards paying the writers of the stories. So, as a fan, of course I donated!

 Anyway, hope you will enjoy this podcast as well. Happy Wednesday!

Bloody Monday

I haven’t done a recap in a while, because of… because of… because of reasons! (Nah, just the regular boring reasons, like work and flue and summer). I would say nothings interesting has happened and you didn’t missed a thing, but that’s not true! Lot’s of interesting things have happened this summer! You know, besides my double-sided pneumonia. Let’s see:

I’ve been taking photos:

I’ve been crafting:


  • Playing The Secret World and LOOOOOVING it. But there are not enough hours in a week, I need more time to game!
  • Stressing myself out about the Halo 4 release. Need to play through all the previous games first. Again. It’s a bit like when you’ve been waiting for book number 6 in a great book series for YEARS and need to read them all again before you can read the new one.
  • Also: Dear Kinect, we love you. Sorry for not playing with you in a while.
  • Me and Jed had a proper, dice-rolling RPG night with some friends the other night! We started on an adventure set in Mutant. Soooooo many years ago… So much fun! But I felt really, really rusty!


  • My friend Micu introduced me to Mail Art. I wrote about it over here! Now we are working on setting up a blog dedicated to this project, and it will be completely cool and amazing. Anybody can make art. Why not use it to cheer someone up? Keep your eyes open for more about this, very soon!

In other news:

Sixxten the Cat likes to lounge.


That’s it for tonight! Stay safeses, everyone!