Don’t disappoint my subconscious, SOE

As the reveal of EQnext is getting closer and closer, I pretty much get more obsessed with it every day. But since there are very, very few details released about the game as of yet, my brain sort of makes up things on its own, when I’m sleeping.

Last night, for instance, I dreamt that I was playing a new fantasy MMO. And I didn’t know how it worked, so I ran around in the world trying to figure things out. I remember being very frustrated, because I could not figure out skills or stats. Or how to open any basic window to read about them.

So I’m shuffling around (I assume my character was a ratonga) in a small village, when suddenly I realize where I can see information about some of my skills. As it happens, one of them, for some reason, is gardening.

”Gardening?” I think, perplexed, and wonder how in hell I am supposed to raise that skill. So I hobble over to my little cottage, since I apparently have one in this village, and find a small urn outside, filled with soil. And I start to dig in it and rummage around with my paws. Then a bar pops up in front of my eyes, and I can see how my skill is getting higher, much like in The Sims.

Then my alarm goes off and I remember being very perturbed by the fact that I didn’t have a chance to finish raising my gardening skill before I had to wake up.

And then I had to remind myself that I wasn’t ACTUALLY playing the game.

Uhm… yeah….

I guess if crafting isn’t a big part of EQnext, my subconscious will be very disappointed.

You can block the tags, but not the enthusiasm

Hello world! Anybody following my Twitter might have noticed a slight increase in tweets and re-tweets regarding EverQuest Next. Anybody not the slightly bit interested in my complete fanaticism in the EQ-, EQ2- and EQNext franchise and MMORPGS are advised to filter out the tags #EQnext, #EQ2 and #SOElive. Because there is likely to be much, much more where that came from.

I have had a long, standing love affair with EQ2 since it was released in 2004, and have been waiting for EQ3, now known as EverQuest Next, for years now. Rumours have been out for a long time and now, finally, they will do a big reveal at SOE Live in Las Vegas, in the beginning of August. Seriously, I am so excited now that I almost can’t sleep. I am dying to get to know EVERYTHING. So far, very few details have slipped out from the EQnext team, all in a very controlled fashion. The game has not even been released yet, but still it has won awards at this year’s E3. The hype is huge.

I am so freaking excited. I feel like screaming: “It’s so fluffy, I could die!”. That is the voice in my head, when I think about the game.

So… Big reveal at SOE Live in Vegas on August 2nd. Hopefully a release date before the end of the year. Then you’ll know where to find me…

What’s up?

I haven’t blogged in a long while, and I have missed writing down words and putting them together into some sort of sentences, so here’s a haphazardly random blog post about my rather mundane life.

So, I’ll just imagine that you, dear reader, just turned to me with a glass of rosé in your hand, asking me: “Giiirl, what’s up in your life?!”. And I’ll be like “Hey giiirl, so much is going on!”. Of course, in this scenario, I am also holding a glass of rosé, and I might just have exaggerated a bit, because, not all that much HAS been going on, in my opinion. Rather, I have been trying to save up some energy to do much at all, by not doing much at all. I’m getting there. Somewhere I will find my balance, and I won’t feel as out of sorts anymore. I have a pile of “important things I really want to pay attention to and sort out”, including all of my correspondence for this spring, sorting out permission for my driver’s license, backing up my photos (yikes), possibly actually post-process some of them and generally just get my life in the state of order that I like, that sweet spot of order that makes the squishy insides of my brain relax.

So, let’s go: Giiirl, what’s up? Well, the biggest news is that I got a new job. It all went very quickly, so I am still in a state of surprise. I applied for a job I was really interested in, got to go to a couple of interviews and then signed the papers within ten days. How the heck that happened I do not know. I guess sometimes it’s just about luck and timing.

Been at the new place  for a few weeks now, and my brain still thinks that I am on some sort of temporary visit, and that I’m going back to my old job any time soon. It’s a weird feeling. I was at my old place for over six years, so I was pretty set in my ways. So far I’ve managed to end up in the right place in the mornings, but it wouldn’t surprise me if one day I’d just go on auto pilot and go to my old place. Wont I be confused… Better stock to a strict coffee breakfast.

As far as timing goes, the two weeks we’d booked for going over to the UK this spring to visit family happened to be booked just a couple of weeks before I started my new job. So that was lucky! It was so lovely to see the in-laws again, as always. I wish we could go see them a bit more often.

We spent time with the family, took a small weekend trip to the Eden Project in Wales, and spent a couple of days in London. I took a ton of photos! If I can get my ass in gear, I’ll post some of them here.

These are the main events recently. Other than that I have mostly been trying to get my mojo back after a rather challenging start of the year. There was quite a few months where I spent most of my energy at my job, so I am far behind with everything else. Email, correspondence, seeing friends, seeing family, gaming, crafting. Books have been piling up on my bedside table. I haven’t been very good company to Jed. I’ve missed birthdays and other important occasions.

I am slowly catching up; with life, with happiness, with inspiration. I’ve been focusing on slowing things down and centering my life around things that will make me feel relaxed and give me energy. Sometimes that thing has just been about doing nothing at all. Sometimes it has been about letting go of thoughts and trying to craft and create art. It’s not always easy to find your way back. It’s a bit like yoga; you have to strengthen your core to find balance.